the unsent letter... writing to reach you...

Hi,

I know none of the things im writing or have ever written would reach you just as none of my feelings could,
but im still writing this just to alleviate the pain i hold within...

people say that first love is unforgettable and the feeling of first kiss can give you
shivers years after that. But with us everything that happened, happened to end the story... for good..
you touched my body and every part of it while i lay down like a statue and felt like a stone that feels nothing.

With every touch of yours I could sense the lovelessness you held within.

Your hands touched my breasts, pressed them hard and I felt nothing,

your hands moved down, you touched me there, you kissed me there.... and i felt nothing....
.... no sadness, no joy, no fear, no shame... absolutely nothing...but I felt my love dying..
what a pity.. what a death..

Thats how my love for you died, thats how I succumbed to such a death of my first love...

You wanted to test my love or may be nothing, may be it was love or may be nothing...
whatever it was... you did succeed, but my love failed....